Got back in the pool today after an absence due to shoulder injury and then prolonged lack of confidence. I have been struggling with the idea of being able to do this swim and completely lost my confidence. I knew that I should just, literally, take the plunge and get back training, but felt too overwhelmed to risk failing and feeling worse about myself.
I’m a very positive person and kept telling myself that it was ok to feel this way, but I wouldn’t feel like it forever, and the only way to get over it was to pull myself together and, well, get over it.
To help myself I’ve made a few personal changes, starting with doing a detox thingy that I’ve done before and enjoyed. None of the only drinking juice stuff, I’d pass out by 9.30am! With this one you cut out lots or some of the stuff that’s ‘bad’ for your body, and eat loads and loads and loads of stuff that’s great for your body. You eat so much food it’s fantastic! I’m not one for ‘dieting’, you don’t have a limit on how much you can eat, the idea is you limit what types of foods you eat, with the aim to cut out wheat, dairy, processed foods, meat and alcohol. I don’t eat meat anyway, we don’t really have much processed food, and I’m intolerant to dairy, so it’s not too bad for me. I will struggle without coffee (and the 2 sugars I put in it!) so I will cut down and not give up entirely; I will miss the odd glass of wine but have decided to abstain for the foreseeable future and maybe do some early morning swims; and I will cry daily about not being able to have several packets of thai sweet chilli crisps, but hey ho, you can’t win them all. The last time I did it I felt so much better for it mentally as well as physically, and thought it would be a good way to kick start my new ‘confidence’ regime.
So I’m back on track being strict with my self confidence, because it’s the only way I’ll be able to not just complete this adventure, but enjoy it too. It’s such a great opportunity and such a great group of women who inspire me enormously. I’m so grateful to be part of their team. Thanks ladies xx